Soliloquy.

I'm not sure what bothers me most,
the fact that no one has commented on my last five posts,
or the fact that our friendship can't grow much more due to other friendships.

I talked and spilled truth without realizing why I was even talking in the first place.
It caught me off-guard like a cracked sippy-cup. I didn't realize I was leaking.
Maybe I was just, comfortable.
The more I spoke, the more I wanted her to know.
Maybe if I didn't talk the whole time, she would've opened up too.
I want her to feel comfortable.

I've hung out with her along with other friends plenty of times,
but it's weird to think that us hanging out alone was the most fun I've had in awhile.

And I'm cautious to write more, because maybe I'm the one thinking about and writing about that night.
But I have to write about it.

Although this is a public blog, in my mind it's a broad soliloquy without description of my mind.
No description, because I'm cautious.
Just the general answers and shrug-of-the-shoulders.

And I wear a beanie 'cause I'm Indie, and I wear nike socks 'cause I'm a Jock.
But I always remember my leather belt along with my button-up to remind myself where I stand.
I contradict myself consistently without solving my errors.
And this paragraph might not coincide with the previous, but the beanie is the focus.

And I want to progress our friendship but maybe drive isn't a good idea,
I'll choose neutral and see where the road takes me.

I'm intrigued by the fact that I don't know if this is weird, but also,
who cares. This is a soliloquy, remember?

-J.Stamos.

HE always knows what to say.

They said we're all out of wine.

HE said just bring me some water.

They said he was born blind.

HE asked do you have faith?

They said she's an adulterer.

HE said he who is without sin, cast the first stone.

They said there's no fish.

HE said cast your nets on the other side.

He came back to gives thanks.

HE asked where are the other nine?

She said I already have water.

HE said drink of my water, and you'll never thirst.

They said he was a liar.

HE said nothing.

They laughed.

HE said nothing.

They martyred him.

HE returned to bless those who never doubted.

-J.Stamos.

Boston is in our prayers.

"Other people divided in the pigments of a fragment nation

Im just a voice, A figment of your imagination

It's your choice the difference find your aspiration

Instead of being a fool tricked by Fascination

Training thought getting on track, now we leave the station

Go for 2012, Better conversation

Between nations so they can make reparations

Politicians never lived up to my expectations."

- Tom Pepe (Knowmads) 

As I visit different parts of our country, I see a wall.

This wall is invisible, yet, we all know it's there.

About 100 ft. tall, and an eternity wide.

A country divided.

Why people expect the government to provide for them I can't quite comprehend.

Why people expect the government to fix the economy on their own, I can't quite comprehend.

Our country will never. NEVER. be in complete peaceful bliss. We'll never agree completely with one another.

Poverty, middle-class, wealth.

We can never expect this all to equate to one.

BUT.

When our country, is faced with trials and tribulations. When our country, is attacked. When our country has fear and terror in their eyes. WE DISMANTLE THE WALL, AND BECOME A FORCE.

R.I.P. Boston bombing victims.

If you're reading this, please watch this video.

Boston Bruins hockey game two days after bombing.

It'll change your view of our country, and the wall.

-J.Stamos.

Back in Black.

"It is time for you to learn about trust, Asok."

"America is the definition of non-believer."

-J.Stamos.

Assume.

She was telling me about how her parents argued and fought all the time, but it was okay and that they were carrying on. It's no big deal, she said. As the tension built up inside she just brushed it off like a fly on her shoulder.

The problem with this is not completely the fact that her family life isn't the best, but the fact that I just assumed everything was fine.  It never crossed my mind that she was facing something like this, I was oblivious.  I HATE being oblivious.

I assumed.

I don't know of many worse things to do in life then assume.  I always assume the best in everything, doesn't everybody?  I like to be optimistic.  But I now realize that when I'm assuming, I'm not considering the option that not everyone's lives are perfect, even though we'd like them to be.

It came as a shock to me.

I just assumed.

People say never assume, because to assume is to make an ASS out of U and ME.

I used to think and assume that everyone had a perfect testimony in church, and none of them ever made mistakes.  I thought that when I made a mistake, I was alone.  I assumed everyone had it good but me, and that I was experiencing trials no one else had to go through.  It wasn't until I was 17 when I noticed some other kids meeting with the Bishop often.  My friends discussed the happiness they received from meeting with their Bishop.

I've had to meet with my Bishop.

I used to assume I was the only one, that I was the one kid who is figuring things out for the best, and trying to discover myself.  I assumed I was the only one lost.

But I'm not alone, and it is comforting.

One time I assumed that my teacher would never catch me cheating. So I cheated on a spelling test. Shhh don't tell.

I didn't get caught by my teacher, but I did get caught by my guilt.  Nothing is more embarrassing then telling your teacher you cheated.  Trust me.

I used to assume.

Don't assume.  Make sure you're on the same page with others, you really don't want to make an ass out of yourself. Trust me.

-J.Stamos.

* If anyone asks.. ASS means donkey. Duh.

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